Falling down down down

Defeating Logic

2009-08-15T15:57:55Z

There is a time, and a place, when mechanics don't quite match up with, the symmetrical remnants of what once was. There is a time, and a place, when heart beats don't quite match up with the mechanics of what will be. But this time, in this place, even with the remnants struggling for a permanent accommodation, my heart will offer more to that good tiding, and finally settle in a pleasant place.

Maybe this time, the tide will be less harsh and rising. Maybe this time, the gentle slide of hand will be in favor of us fortunate lovers, the kind of people that keep beautiful hearts on perpetuous sleeves for tides emerging.

Customizing!

2009-08-06T16:19:59Z

I've been messing around with Litestep and Rainmeter:

This is my screenshot of what little I've worked with:

The litestep theme is the Elemental Litestep Theme by splizzle on deviantart.
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The rainmeter skin is from Gaia 09, created by rebek.

And the background I'm not sure where I got it from, I'm assuming deviantart, but I will continue to look for the creator of this amazing artwork.

3cheers @ 2009-07-20T16:09:00

2009-07-20T21:16:36Z

I have been enjoying my iphone camera more than usual lately because I have pictures to prove it.

This is my boyfriend. I have been playing around with the toy camera app and these are the results.

Aren't we cute?

Series of me pictures.

Now the rest are just me messin' around with the app with other friends. This friend is Boi.

This is Joel on left and Jasmin on right.

Again, Joel.

Huey, the cat, in Jasmin's record crate.

Me again.

Regular pictures of me f

This game was so awesome looking I had to take a pic.

This was another amazing star wars game. My handle was broken on one side but I played anyways.

We put our points together and got this. Adorable! You get awesome points if you can tell me what it is.

Latest and great..est

2009-07-15T22:43:43Z

So I'm not putting aside art but to give you a quick update, I've been getting back into gaming. Latest games played:

Perfect Dark
CoD4
Resident Evil 5
Galaxy Wars 2

I can't recall others right now but I'll keep updating the list as they come, also giving my opinion on these games. Cool?

Here is how I've been:

Posted via LiveJournal.app.

I haven't died

2008-10-09T17:47:38Z

I'm simply rehabilitating my soul.

Soul members

2008-07-07T03:05:01Z

Clown in the Moon

My tears are like the quiet drift
Of petals from some magic rose;
And all my grief flows from the rift
Of unremembered skies and snows.

I think, that if I touched the earth,
It would crumble;
It is so sad and beautiful,
So tremulously like a dream.

-Dylan Thomas

damn these watery eyes

2008-06-15T22:16:36Z

I don't really want to talk about this day, but it really effects me.

Have a nice day.

I'm bundling the writings

2008-06-07T00:40:13Z

I want to live in dreams where we are constantly reforming.

When our bodies move, our weight shakes the car. People think its hydraulics, but baby its just the way we dance.

No need for number counting cuz we've got the beat.

We all have got exploding veins, freedom sifting through our blood.

Beads of pale ale and splatters of some unjust, a feeling that craves.

They have foggy faces and tons of dried up places.

I'm trying to follow the map carved lightly in the ground.

The kids have had that summer pale.

Do we watch the time in anticipation or in trying to gather the minutes we left behind.

Your ship shaped and infallible, I'm weakened and relax you told me.

Can't these people pay attention, when did I forget to mention.

You wrote commitment in six letters and stained the carpet with your teeth. I strung out across a thousand keychain's, yet find comfort underneath.

cute comics

2008-04-09T17:12:48Z

eekeemoo

nedroid

flying

good night, good light!

Smokin relationship

2008-03-11T18:03:47Z

You creep into my lungs first thing in the morning, introducing your friends anthracosis and emphysema; but sweety that's only what coal miners carry. And now I carry this weight on my chest, making it harder and harder to consume your ideas of nicotine and relaxation throughout the day. I had a love for you that no dissident hope bringer could understand or even hope to carry out. But when we carried out our waltz it reshaped into a tango salsa vicious mix and now I can't even grasp the butt end without betraying you with a cough. You barge into my lungs at the end of the day, and frankly darling, I think its about time to give up.

school daze

2008-03-08T16:27:57Z

I lost focus on everything around me, and my futures become more distinct. I'm reaching out to grasp something tangable, but breaking loose as I bright future slips through my bony fingers. I'm embittered with myself and how many days I've missed of a point to hope in class.

One sad fuckin day

2008-01-23T05:48:25Z

RIP Heath Ledger. You will be missed.

I wrote this in '06

2008-01-22T01:53:46Z

in English. I'm just finding a bunch of old stuff I thought you might like. Might.

Time Away

Wake up to the alarm that screams,
vicious cycles on our merry go round;
trust me its not heat that steams,
but a lack of voice or lack of sound;
I need more than this contemporary thought,
stuck within and the ship goes down;
nothing more than a significant shot,
give me a shot and my voice is found;
time for time when time's no more,
its time for me to anchors away;
seen through my hands to off the shore,
hands that hold onto yesterday;
maybe this cycle is at its end,
the alarm that sleeps a message send.

this is a Shakespearean Sonnet.

Against Me! Show 11/3/05

2008-01-22T01:38:05Z

I wrote this a long time ago, but I thought it was kind of interesting.

It was beautiful.

The lights the smoke that clung to the air the sweat on my back the sweat on everyone else that stood on end

The noise the music that at first shocks you because its real its live and their faces you can't believe its them then your brain identifies the song and your off

The people the people of a mixed crowd of new and old you hate the new because you love the old but you know what being the new feels like

It seemed more a wave than a crowd. Like "lets see who can get to the front first!". A never ending fight with someones elbow and someone else's sweaty back. An air raid from someones body and god help you you have to hold them up. But in the midst of all the commotion the music ITS BEING PLAYED RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU YOU LOVE THIS SONG scream along sing along fist in the air now now now

and we rock
Clapclap clap
because its us against them
clapclap clap
we found our own reasons to sing
clapclap clap
and its so much less confusing
clapclap clap
when lives are drawn like that
clapclap clap

Unity.

As I said, it seemed more a wave than a crowd

I also thought of a good analogy yesterday, has nothing to do with Against Me!
To me, hearing Spanish is like hearing a song I've never hear before. I understand some words but there is a lot I can't quite make out.

who is coming back to me?

2008-01-19T17:08:04Z

I'm comatose on a bed without sheets.

Not why I'm shaking uncontrollably.

Starring at pictures of nothing.

A fucked up situation I'm in.

Lets talk about kisses

2008-01-09T00:15:44Z

The kisses I like.

Rushed kisses, I caught you just in time kisses, hands around the waist kisses, I don't care if its raining kisses, Ive wanted to do this for so long kisses

Slow kisses, I love looking in your eyes kisses, we have the rest of the day to ourselves kisses, I want to remember this moment kisses, God your a good kisser kisses

Passionate kisses, lets live in this moment kisses, I don't care where we are kisses, I want you now kisses, I don't want to regret never kissing you kisses

These are the kisses I miss.

Little Belated New Years

2008-01-03T22:08:47Z

I forgot about this comic:

Thought I would reintroduce it. Happy New Years.

And slingshot:

January 3, 2008

2008 Quadrantids Meteor Shower begins
1781 Inca Rebellion. Inca besiege Cuzco (Peru) in attempt to dislodge Spanish
1907 Leon Trotsky sent to Siberian penal colony for revolutionary activity.

We all need to cry

2008-01-02T17:20:42Z

Sometimes we all just need to cry. You have that feeling every once and while. The feeling of sadness rushes over you, and you want to cry. Just let it go, I don't know any other way to take care of that feeling but to cry. So let me explain my sadness. Its the day after new years day, if you didn't know, and its a not hangover day. Now that my thoughts are completely cleared, I can think about what took place on New Years. And I kinda wish Jasmin and I didn't go to Fort Worth...and I kinda wish we partied with all of our close friends, instead of the guys we wanted to be close to. Because that guy that I want to be close to, I kinda wish I didn't see. I kinda wish he wasn't adorable in his tie and I kinda wish he wasn't adorable when he danced and sang and I kinda wished...he talked to me..So of course I kinda wish I went so fast with him, and kinda wish he was still interested in me, even though he is moving. But right right now, I kinda wish I didn't like boys.

Ok, so now its slingshot time:

January 2, 2008

1905 Chicago Unionists form Industrial Workers of the World (IWW)
1920 Palmer raids of anarchists and leftists begin - 2758 arrested, 556 held for deportation
1959 Day of Revolution in Cuba

And I'm going to leave with words from Kimya Dawson:

Underground
my head is pounding I can't stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
and kill everybody who's in close proximity to the place I call my home
and they'll make a moving made for tv movie for Life Time all about my life
that ends with an epitaph one that will make you laugh
that says "great mom okay wife"
at it'll be funny to the people who know me
who know if my body's not burned
my soul will spend an eternity in misery
teathered and bound to this earth
so I'm not a dick or a stick in the mud always ruining things for my friends
I mustn't forget when I see the sun set that tomorrow it will rise again

so I tattoo instructions on my ass
that say "don't ever put this body is a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the Puget Sound
I don't ever want to be under ground"
oh no, oh no

I wearing size thirteen basketball shoes
and laugh at your fishnets
I'm freaked out and fucked up
and I'm standing alone in an alley with you
wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups
but instead I close my eyes
the needles are numbered so I'm writing you letters
and I cannot disguise the fact that I'm nervous when we are together
and so I fantasize
that the nights will get shorter and the days will get better
I feel a kick inside and decide
if this is a girl I'm naming her Heather
she'll look just like you but her hair will be feathered
she'll say how you died before you ever met her
her hair will be feathered

my head is pounding I can't stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
there are plus and minuses to sinuitus
like sometimes I get to go home
but mostly it hurts so bad I think I'm dying
I just blew my nose and now I feel like crying
and the dreams that I have are all of my past lives
and the seizures would parylize me in the night
and I wake up clutching my teddy bear tight
I'm drooling and trying to turn on the light
all I can do is hold fast and sit tight
but what if they forget 'cause you know they just might

so I tattoo instructions on my ass
that say "don't ever put this body is a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the Puget Sound
I don't ever want to be under ground"
oh no, oh no

Starting Slingshot

2008-01-02T04:23:59Z

yes, so I will officially give you the history of everyday through my slingshot organizer. Happy start of 2008!

January 1st, 2008

1804 Haitian slaves, led by Jean Jacques Desalines, declare independence
2008 Kwanzaa - Seventh day Imani (faith)
2008 New Years Day! (woohoo)

The False Hopes Entry

2007-12-27T19:51:41Z

False hopes for false words that take place in false dreams. I'm bowing out now; you, sir, did great in pushing me away. Maybe it all went so fast, but keep in mind, I'm still desiring your presence. This is only to you, now. This is only for the best, now. This is only for you, now, because from my understanding even though your moving, I want to spend my time with you. I've accepted your leaving, I just didn't accept your not wanting to be near me. No matter how selfish we both may seem, I just want you to say hello.

The Real Stuff Entry

2007-12-27T19:43:11Z

The Queers came out with a new album, Munki Brain. I actually want to get it, because its the queers, man. Buying..I might not...sorry I'll see if its worth my money.

The Wiki Rage right now:

http://www.wikirage.com/wiki/Benazir_Bhutto/
http://www.wikirage.com/wiki/Benazir_Bhutto_assassination/
http://www.wikirage.com/wiki/Religious_debates_over_Harry_Potter/
http://www.wikirage.com/wiki/Aliens_vs._Predator:_Requiem/
http://www.wikirage.com/wiki/Deaths_in_2007/

Ok to discuss the first two, HOLY CRAP, the former prime minister of Pakistan was assassignated! I liked her..

Now the third one, Harry Potter will soon be a classic as many classic books have religious debates spawning over centuries. Way to go, Harry Potter.

AVP, I was going to see this Christmas Day, ended up partying instead..

And the deaths in 2007 are still happening..But this wiki article is long.

So this is all I have for you right now, maybe I'll think of something cool to talk about later.

And you thought I forgot

2007-11-06T04:45:41Z

I love you and I say it so naturally I almost forget. And I really can't believe I actually made myself forget because between you and me, those flowers lied in keeping you secret. What was I suppose to do with all my strings the unattainable unfeasible unrecoverable unthinkable, the ones I couldn't identify as broken but hopeless. I can't just pull myself together if I convienced myself long ago your my better half.

I will always, always be missing you.

more halfs just like me and you.

Every Sunday

2007-10-29T02:48:34Z

I read the new post secrets that have come out. Now I'm starting to save them, I enjoy them so much. I'm going to put some under a cut.

So here they are:

Now here are some secrets of my own:

I am on the internet every single day and I do a routine. I log on to aim, and open firefox to check my email, deviant art, vexels, and myspace. All in hopes of someone iming me, sending me an email, favoriting or commenting on my deviant art and vexels, or receiving a message or comment on myspace. In the end of my routine, I'm always disappointed.

I even write in my livejournal, in hopes of someone reading this. I wonder what I failed at.

New stuff made

2007-09-22T04:35:09Z

Some stuff I created today. They look pretty lame but most of my artwork does.

Birthday events

2007-09-21T21:39:24Z

ON MARCH 3RD:

1894 - The "Atlantis" was first published. It was the first Greek newspaper in America.
1903 - In St. Louis, MO, Barney Gilmore was arrested for spitting.
1903 - The U.S. imposed a $2 head tax on immigrants.
1908 - The U.S. government declared open war on on U.S. anarchists.
1923 - The first issue of Time magazine was published.
1931 - The first jazz album to sell a million copies was recorded. It was "Minnie The Moocher" by Cab Calloway.
1939 - In Bombay, Ghandi began a fast to protest the state's autocratic rule.
1952 - The U.S. Supreme Court upheld New York's Feinberg Law that banned Communist teachers in the U.S.
1956 - Morocco gained its independence.
1957 - Samuel Cardinal Stritch banned rock 'n' roll from Chicago archdiocese Roman Catholic schools.
1978 - The remains of Charles Chaplin were stolen from his grave in Cosier-sur-Vevey, Switzerland. The body was recovered 11 weeks later near Lake Geneva.
1985 - Women Against Pornography awarded its ‘Pig Award’ to Huggies Diapers. The activists claimed that the TV ads for diapers had "crossed the line between eye-catching and porn."
1991 - Rodney King was severely beaten by Los Angeles police officers. The scene was captured on amateur video.
1994 - The Mexican government reached a peace agreement with the Chiapas rebels.
1994 - Kurt Cobain of Nirvana lapsed into a coma in Italy after taking a combination of Valium and champagne.

THE BIRTH OF:

Alexander Graham Bell 1847 (the only person worth remembering)